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Pag-alala sa Mapait na Nakaraan – Wahahahaha 2

Posted in It's Just Emotions with tags , on February 4, 2008 by niennavarda

“I understand feeling as small and as insignificant as humanly possible, and how it can actually ache in places you didn’t know you had inside you, and it doesn’t matter how many new haircuts you get, or gyms you join, or how many glasses of chardonnay you drink with your girlfriends… you still go to bed every night going over every detail and wonder what you did wrong, or how you could have misunderstood, and how in the hell for that brief moment you could think that you were that happy. And sometimes you can even convince yourself that he’ll see the light and show up at your door. And after all that, however long all that may be, you’ll go somewhere new, and you’ll meet people who make you feel worthwhile again, and little pieces of your soul will finally come back. And all that fuzzy stuff, those years of your life that you wasted, that will eventually begin to fade.”

– Iris, The Holidays

 

I know all women feel this way after being dumped and because of vanity or pride or other what-nots, we don’t admit it. But I also know it feels damn good to be honest and to admit that we’ve been hurt. That no matter how many distractions we make, there’s always this gnawing pain that would just not go.

I haven’t been dumped recently but I sure know how being dumped and how its after effects feel like (plus I just got pushed away by someone I really, really like – ouchy).

I know it’s mamaw late but to all the people who made me feel worthwhile again, maraming-maraming salamat 🙂

The Good and Not-so Good Old Days

Posted in To Forget or Not to Forget with tags , on January 25, 2008 by niennavarda

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Got this picture from Regilyn’s site. This picture was taken back in college when life was way simpler and passing or failing an exam meant the world. This picture made me kind of feel my age. Wahahaha! Si-nepia pa talaga ni Reg 😛 Anyway, I particularly like this picture because it is the kind of picture you show your grandchildren and say:

“This used to be your Ninang Karen, she’s as makulit as ever. This was Tita Reg and Tito Mike. They were already a couple back then. This was Tito Jor-el, he was such a heart throb. And this was my ex-boyfriend… he’s dead.” Wehehehe.

I know it’s such a cliche but time really does fly. So much have changed and a lot of things happened in between. Some of us grew apart. Some had major conflicts and are now on non-speaking terms (some can’t even bear being in the same room together). But some still remain and are the closest friends 🙂 Relationships may have been ruptured but it can’t be denied that we have been witnesses of each others’ lives during those turbulent years when we were still figuring out what our puny existence meant to the world. So to hell with sentimentality and bitterness.

We journey through this life and meet people along the way (corny but true). But crossroads come and decisions are made. The people dearest to us choose paths that are more than usually not the same as our own. That is something we just have to accept. Ganun talaga ang buhay (cliche :P). Life goes on (still another cliche :P). But who knows, paths intertwine. We might journey together once more. So guys (and other estranged friends), till our paths meet again 😉