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It’s Only Words

Posted in It's Just Emotions, Random Thoughts with tags on August 1, 2008 by niennavarda

To say the very thing you really mean, the whole of it, nothing more or less or other than what you really mean; that’s the whole art and joy of words”

The Fox, Till We Have Faces, C.S. Lewis


If only I can, I would but I suck at words and often say the wrong things. I don’t know how to express myself well and thus am often misunderstood. Oh, I want to experience the beauty that comes with the art of words!

If only words could flow through me and utter what I truly want to say straightforwardly and without fear… my heart may need not hurt so 😦


Posted in It's Just Emotions on February 27, 2008 by niennavarda

Is it because I’m darn too happy?

I’m happy! This is the happiest I’ve been in a really long time and I want to savor it because I know this wouldn’t last.

And to you, it was you after all. It was never me. Good thing I ditched you.

I love the sense of freedom I’m in right now. No baggages, no fears, not the least bit worried if I would step on someone else’s toes. I’m me. I’ve finally let myself loose. I’ve finally liberated myself from my chains.

Now I can smell the sweet, fragrant air and taste the sumptuous feast the world has laid out before me. No, no one can stop me. I’m finally me.

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Posted in It's Just Emotions on February 26, 2008 by niennavarda

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Pag-alala sa Mapait na Nakaraan – Wahahahaha 2

Posted in It's Just Emotions with tags , on February 4, 2008 by niennavarda

“I understand feeling as small and as insignificant as humanly possible, and how it can actually ache in places you didn’t know you had inside you, and it doesn’t matter how many new haircuts you get, or gyms you join, or how many glasses of chardonnay you drink with your girlfriends… you still go to bed every night going over every detail and wonder what you did wrong, or how you could have misunderstood, and how in the hell for that brief moment you could think that you were that happy. And sometimes you can even convince yourself that he’ll see the light and show up at your door. And after all that, however long all that may be, you’ll go somewhere new, and you’ll meet people who make you feel worthwhile again, and little pieces of your soul will finally come back. And all that fuzzy stuff, those years of your life that you wasted, that will eventually begin to fade.”

– Iris, The Holidays


I know all women feel this way after being dumped and because of vanity or pride or other what-nots, we don’t admit it. But I also know it feels damn good to be honest and to admit that we’ve been hurt. That no matter how many distractions we make, there’s always this gnawing pain that would just not go.

I haven’t been dumped recently but I sure know how being dumped and how its after effects feel like (plus I just got pushed away by someone I really, really like – ouchy).

I know it’s mamaw late but to all the people who made me feel worthwhile again, maraming-maraming salamat 🙂

Masakit ang Puso Ko Ngayon

Posted in It's Just Emotions on January 23, 2008 by niennavarda

I’m feeling a dull ache in my heart right now and I don’t think it’s just because of Heath Ledger’s untimely death.  It’s not PMS either. I’m confused. Kainis. I’m not supposed to feel this way. I thought I’ve already numbed myself from disappointments after getting nothing but that for so long. I’m not so numb after all. Stupid memories. How does one get selective amnesia? Arrgh! Can I just bang my head against a wall? Arrrgh!!!


Posted in It's Just Emotions on January 18, 2008 by niennavarda

Torpe… kainis

huwag na lang kaya hari ng katorpehan
huwag huwag na lang kaya
di ka ba nagsasawa sa liwanag ng buwan?

namamatay na ang mga rosas sa tabi
di ka pa rin bumibili
nauubos na ang oras sa kahihintay
pero ni sulat, ni tawag, wala

ba’t mo pa kailangan ng tulay?
kahit ulap nagsasabi tayo’y bagay
ba’t mo pa kailangang magtanong?
kung alam mo na, alam mo na

namamatay na ang mga rosas sa tabi
di ka pa rin bumibili
nauubos na ang oras sa kahihintay
pero ni sulat, ni tawag, wala

namamatay na ang mga rosas sa tabi
di ka pa rin bumibili
nauubos na ang oras sa kahihintay

bilisan mo na ngayon kasi tumatakbo ang tren
bilisan mo na ngayon
iiwanan ka, iiwanan

ayoko ng torpe
pero gusto kita

(like, duh!)

– by Barbie Almabis

What Ifs: Emote#1

Posted in It's Just Emotions, To Forget or Not to Forget on January 4, 2008 by niennavarda

        Honestly, I have already forgotten to whom I wrote this for. Or to be more honest, di ko na maalala kung sino sa kanila. hehehe 😛

(Entry written: October 2006)

You’re currently the most pressing “what-if” of my life. I know it’s shallow and pretty trivial and I’d probably just laugh this off a couple of years (or who knows maybe months) from now but right now I would like to be honest and admit that I’m hurt and confused. God, I hate what-ifs.

Sabi na nga ba makakalimutan ko rin after a couple of months eh.