Balentimes day na naman at makikigaya ako kay tinats sa obligatory balemtimes post niya for lack of anything else to write. Hehehe. But well, I’m not that obligated, I do want to write kahit wala akong masulat.
Balentimes na naman. Back in college, I never really cared about this damn day until I got acquainted with mushy feelings and how one is obligated to celebrate it with your significant other. Before that, I had a blockmate (a close friend) who supplied me with roses and chocolates every year just so I wouldn’t be out of place. But that was just about it. I didn’t find Valentines day special until I became aware of it. Kainis pag nagising na ang diwa mo sa mga ganitong bagay. There is no turning back. After I broke up with my ex(es), the day became loathsome. Not because I feel lonely but because I feel out of place. It’s a cursed day where you couldn’t invite your girlfriends to party or your guyfriends to a drinking spree. I having nothing to do. It’s like having a big gap in your calendar. It’s also a day where you have to explain to tons of people why you still don’t have a boyfriend, a date or even just a semblance of a romantic life. It really gets to my nerves.
This Valentine’s day, however, I feel light. I don’t feel antagonistic. And what’s this? I think I even feel… happy, excited. Weird. Really weird. Some forces in the universe might have changed or maybe it’s… you?
